कुछ कमी है तुम्हारे बिना यहाँ ,
सब कुछ तो है,पर ना जाने वो हँसी है कहाँ ,
अच्छे लोग तो यहाँ भी है, जीने के तरीके भी हैं यहाँ ,
पर ना जाने क्यूँ , वो बातें , वो यादें मुझे मिलती हैं कहाँ
एक समय वो भी था जब तू मुझे अच्छा ना लगता था ,
तुझसे भाग कहीं दूर जाने का दिल चाहता था ,
कभी सोचा ना था कि ये अफसाना यहाँ तक पहुँच जाएगा ,
कि उन सडको,उन यारों के बिना ,कुछ अधूरा सा लगने लगेगा मुझे यहाँ ,
शायद आज-कल के भी दिनों को भी मैं आगे चल के याद करूंगा,
हो सकता है कि आगे -चलके इन अनुभवों को भी आपसे साझा करूँगा ,
पर अभी तो लगता है की उन पुराने दिनों को एक बार फिर से जी लूँ ,
ज्यादा कुछ नहीं तो कम से कम उन यारों के संग चाय की चुस्कियां तो ले लूँ
पर कमबख्त ये समय, इतनी बातें सुनता है कहाँ ,
बस कुछ लम्हें सँजो के रख लूँ , इतनी ही आजादी मुझे मिलती हैं यहाँ ,
फिलहाल तो समय की आंधी मे उड़ता जा रहा हूँ मैं, ना जाने ये ले जाएगा कहाँ ,
पर इन यादों को हमेशा सँजो के रखना चाहूँगा ,चाहे ये समय ले जा पटके जहाँ...
जब-२ लगे कि बहुत पाठ पढ़ लिए हैं मैंने.
तब-२ तू मुझे एक नया पाठ पढ़ाती है,
जब-2 मुझे लगे कि बहुत दुनिया देखी ली है मैंने.
तब-२ एक नयी दुनिया दिखा के , तू मुझे दुबारा हैरत मे लाती है.
यूँ तो मेरा सोचा हुआ अक्सर मुझे नसीब नहीं होता,
दिल का बुना हुआ मेरा ख्वाब अक्सर पूरा नहीं होता,
और जब मैं तुझसे हार के ख्वाब बुनना छोड़ दूं.
ठीक उसी पल तू मुझे एक नया ख्वाब दिखाती है ,
और जब मैं इसे तेरा एक झूठा दिलासा समझ के इससे दूर जाना चाहूँ,
तब आशाओं की सुनहरी सेज दिखा कर तू मुझमे सपनों के पूरा होने की नयी उम्मीद जगाती है,
मैंने अपने सपनो के पूरा करने के लिए पूरा दम लगाया है,
औरों की क्या बात करूँ, मैंने तो तुझपे भी दांव लगाया है,.
इन सबके बाद भी अगर कभी मेरा ख्वाब पूरा ना हो,तब तू मुझे बहुत सताती है,
मेरी हार मे मेरी गलतियाँ दिखा कर, तू मुझे खुद पर हसांती है,
सुख-दुःख तो जीवन के दो पहलू है, ये तो चलते रहेंगे,
मेरे ख्वाब कभी आकाश तो कभी धरा पर रहेंगे,
पर इन सबमे तेरी मुझसे ये आँख मिंचोली, मुझे बहुत भाती है,
दुःख के समय मे भी तुझसे जीतने की चाह,मुझमे हमेशा एक नया हौसला जगाती है,
और जब-२ लगे कि बहुत पाठ पढ़ लिए हैं मैंने.
तब-२ तू मुझे एक नया पाठ पढ़ाती है,
जब-2 मुझे लगे कि बहुत दुनिया देखी ली है मैंने.
तब-२ एक नयी दुनिया दिखा के , तू मुझे दुबारा हैरत मे लाती है...
“The event is over now and I am going to celebrate the success of event” he said to me. I was also happy as my friend got the reward for his hard work and was satisfied with the event. Then I asked him “so what is your plan for celebration??” then he replied “we have sent some guys to the market to get some “adult’s cold drink” and then we would be having the cocktail party”. Now this was the statement which inspired me to think upon this topic seriously and to write upon it.
Actually the thought which was banging in my mind for last few years that “how the people relate their activities and incidences of their life with their addiction, how they make it(addiction) as a very important part of their life”. Some of the popular lines often said by the people are :-
1. “Its time to celebrate now, let’s have a cocktail party”.
2. Yar, I am very tensed now, please get some cigarettes or some “adult’s cold drink” for me.
3. Yar, I think I have grown up now. I should try this cigarette or “adult’s cold drink”.
“ isme to apni alag hi tashan hoti”
I have seen in many of the cases that initially many of the people try cigarette or “adult’s cold drink” just for some special occasions only but slowly they just relate it with incidences of their life and get themselves in such situation from where it becomes so tough to come out from this situation.
I just ask to them “ ok, you are happy, you must celebrate . But how would this “adult’s cold drink” help you to celebrate?? Celebration means getting together with your friends, with the people whose team effort gave you the chance for celebration, with the persons who are really happy in your happiness. In all these what is the role of that “adult’s cold drink”. Should it be as important that now it is giving you the chance to meet your well wishers?? I don’t think that it should.. do you??
I accept that you are tensed, frustrated by the circumstances around you, so you need to give time to yourself, to go through the real cause of the problem and get the solution of the problem but how would this cigarette help you come from that situation? Would it give you the solution of your problem or would it improve your concentration?? I don’t think so.
Yes, you have grown up now, so it means that you need to behave with maturity, you should be aware with the responsibilities which are coming towards you, but in no case it should be related with your habit of cigarette etc.( “aur isme koi tashan ki baat ni hoti hai”)
These were the only few examples of that how the people relate themselves, their habit to addiction.
People often say that “ yar, I don’t want to do this but society mai reh ke ye sab karna padhta hai” now I ask to them that if society would ask you to compromise with your morals, your principles, would you accept to do it??If your morals do not allow to do something then why do you do it?? Please don’t let that peer pressure to get over you. Only you (and up to some extent your well wishers) should be responsible for your decisions, never let the society to decide your step, just be yourself.
Generally people when talk about the addiction, they just limit themselves up to that cigarette etc. only but it is not so. Addiction may be mental addiction too that you are addicted to do something at any rate and at any cost. You are in such a habit of talking to someone or doing anything that once you don’t get that then it becomes so tough for you to live normally, it is also an addiction. Mental addiction is nevertheless less dangerous than that addiction, in fact in many cases it (mental) is more dangerous than other kind of addiction. Friends, life is too long, we would have to go through the various phases of life, would come across through various incidences so don’t relate it with your addiction because everything has its limit and if once that limit is crossed then it would definitely create some problem and generally addiction crosses that limit. I am not saying that drinking, smoking or getting in habit of something is bad thing.. no, it is your choice only whether to go for it or not. But please do not relate it with your those incidences , do not give credit of your addiction to that incidences.
PS: in starting of this article, I just told about my friend. My friend was moving towards addiction…but finally knowing my thoughts, going through the concept of this article, he has decided to not to do it again and his this decision gave me enormous pleasure and the ending of this article in real sense..:)
You found yourself into me
You treated me as u wished to be treated
but was it the correct way to meet me??
things never bothered you when It happened with me
it bothered when you co- related it with your self
but was it the correct way to identify me??
I was happy because you had comfort with me
but was not knowing the fact that
you were just happy with yourself which you found into me..
I never had your shoulder to cry,
you seldom smiled with smile of mine
was it the correct way of being a friend of mine???
today you have moved ahead, i am happy for it
may u achieve all your dreams, would always pray for it
but in all these you have lost friendship of mine..
Well, at now its 10:00 P.M…just 2 hours to go..when I will be of 22 years..another successful completion of years of my life..yes, I have completed it..but was it successful??this was the question which is going on my mind from last 5-6 days..i wanted to judge this year..but I was unable to judge. When I started the reminiscence of various incidences of this year then I realized..where I was and where I am..a big. drastic change was there.
Now if I simply look at one face of my life then I feel that this year whatever I wanted, I wished or I prayed for..i could not have it..whether it be related to some of my pals, or my love . In fact in my professional life also, people raised question on me in such a pathetic manner that once it just killed my passion for my works, for my duties, for my responsibilities. I had never been such kind of guy who likes to run-away from his duty..but I did this..shamed on myself, but I did this..and in all these some of my good friends were with them..i failed to win their faith, their trust…I believe that if my friend did not trust me then it was my fault only because I could not win his heart. Now we are just class-mate, share a very formal relationship and now I am ok with it and hope they will be fine in their lives. So at the end of this year, my friendship with those friends has failed.
I am not going to discuss my love life here but at the end of this year, I will consider it as a failure too..not just because that it was one sided, not just because that it could not go to its destination ..but because that we had never such level of relation, such level of closeness as I assumed about it..so it was kind of base- less feeling. So this was my second failure.
Now , coming to my third failure..as a vice-chairman of my society..some of my colleagues, my juniors resigned from the society..whatever be the reason, but they resigned but I could not stop them to do it..i tried a lot..but failed..another disappointment.. one of my colleague resigned from the society just because that she had problem with me…she was very hard-working..and had a dedication for the society..and today also i respect her for her dedication..but she also resigned..people raised question on my loyalty, on my passion, on each-everything..but even after so many efforts also..failed to win their heart..my third failure.
The biggest failure of this year was failure of my morals. I love and respect my morals..but this moment of time, it failed and I had to re think about my morals. Which was one of the biggest pain I ever had..but this year, I had to go through it.
There were also many minor failures… which I am not going to discuss here. They were minor one..but were sufficient enough to disturb me from my aims.
so this was the one face of the coin, the face which is seen by my mind..the face which tells that I am the loser, I totally lost..
but look at other face which is seen by my heart..which says..this year i met with ankit..met in such a way that now I know ankit completely.In last 6 months, I talked a lot to myself, came to know a lot about my-self. I always considered myself as a quite extrovert guy..but in last 6 months ..i came to know that I am quite introvert. I tried to search my happiness in smiles of others which is morally right..but wrong in this physical world..i was always correct in front of myself…but could not be able to prove it in front of others and now it does not even matter for me. This year, I almost remembered all the incidences, phases of my life..tried a lot to know answers of all the questions..and at the end of this year, I almost have..first good news from this year.
In the field of friendship also, if I lost some friends then I gained few too may be in true sense..because they know ankit..understand and respect the morals of ankit..some juniors also turned as good friend of mine..some old friends got closer to me..second good news from this year.
I ran away from my responsibilities..but now I have got the reason to start over again because now I had a lesson from all those incidences..i have sweet memories and lessons both.
Today my heart says this year you met yourself..which is sufficient enough to bring smiles on your face and a reason to move ahead…which is quite bigger than all your failures.
Today I don’t have any reason for joy..but a strong will to move ahead.
Today I don’t have any hard feeling for life..but a strong will to fight with the obstacles which is to be faced by me.
And, I know I will win.
Now it was 11:45 p.m…and wishes has started to come…so I came out from this reminiscence..and now its time to say “HAPPY B’DAY ANKIT” ..:)
This weekend, I had a chance to visit mussorie and I did not want it to go in vain, just wanted to grasp the opportunity with my both hands. So I came to dehradoon, stayed along with one of my friend at his relative’s house..well I am the kind of the guy who usually does not prefer to go anyone’s house until and unless I have great level of intimacy with the person but I am really thankful to my friend because there I met with a lady who really taught me some great things about life, a very positive way of perception about life, something very inspirational, something very illuminating.
We humans are very condition conscious…if all the things go in our favor, we just enjoy, but if in any case it does not , then we just cease our movement, blame to God. Very less no. people maintain their positive attitude at that time also… we lose all our hopes, forget all whether it be our responsibilities or the people whose smiles are attached with our smile, just finish ourselves.. but here I met with this lady , saw her way of perception and it really impressed me.
Lady, whose husband died five year before in a road accident. He left a daughter and lady in his family. He was the only breadwinner of his family. After death of her husband, she got many hands to support her, offer to live with her relatives etc, but this lady did not compromise with her self-respect.. thought to live her life in her own way. So this lady joined job in his husband’s office which was offered by government..started to live along with her daughter and to get some more financial security, started a side business too. The tragedy which was faced by her, could not be able to stop her from dreaming and setting a new goals for her life. I have seen many ladies who after death of their husband do not be able to come out from the tragedy..but this lady really turned round the things. The lady started to work properly in the office and side by side on her business too…now today, her business is running on good condition..the best part is that along with doing all these things, she manages her home very well too. Those mother-daughter are the best friend of each-other..the lady knows all the things which are going on in her daughter’s school or in her dance classes and the daughter knows all the scenario of her mother’s job and business. In her(lady) busy schedule of office and business, she has a time to watch movie along with her daughter, she has time for her daughter’s dances etc . The lady is enjoying her life perfectly along with her daughter…set a new set of ‘amway’..and would definitely achieve all…my best wishes are with her.
So this was the story, which I saw this weekend… but what I learnt ,was something more than it..you know we people always get 100 reasons to smile and one reason to be sad..but we ignore those 100 reasons, we just think about that single reason.. which is sufficient enough for disturbing us, just taking us away from our goal, our responsibilities. I am not saying that we should not bother about that single reason.. no, not all..we must care about that single reason, must learn a lesson from that phase (which is the actual reason behind every sad phase of the life)..but must not bring stoppage in our life.
You know the best and the worst part about the time is the same..and it is “ it never stops”..it just goes on and goes on and the same is with life too…so when all the things are going on..then why should we stop..we must move ahead, must dream ahead.
If someone special (whether it be your father or mother or sister or other) went away from your life and if then, you cease moving ahead then it is surely the insult of the love, care that you had from that person. It is surely the insult of wonderful relation that you had with that person.. you know, the person does not go anywhere , his/her soul always remain somewhere around you.. just to see what you are doing actually. Now the person has gone then it is your time now..take your responsibilities, apply the things what you actually learnt from that person, spread the love what you actually had from that person.
That lady taught me to seek happiness in every lovely moment we live.. and learn a lesson in every bad moment we face. The lady taught me how to be positive in every phase and how to dream ahead.
We people dream something and if it does not fulfill, it just cause poignant in our life..but this lady taught me “ believe in your dreams” and improve yourself to achieve your dreams..and even if you don’t get your dream then also you have improved now.. which itself is a quite big achievement, a real sense of achieving of your dreams…and this reason is sufficient enough to bring smiles on your face.
Life is journey and in this journey we meet with many people…so enjoy meeting with each and every person…move along with those people till the destiny takes you both..and the best part about this journey is that at the end of each journey either you would be having sweet memories or a very good lesson so either a reason to move ahead or a reason to start all over again..but you would have something and that’s for sure.
So after this trip, my positive attitude which was deteriorating, came back and I just remembered my journey till now and I realized that after each phase of journey, I really had something..either it was sweet memory or a very good lesson but I had something, the real reasons to move ahead..:)
वो है अम्बर, तो मै हूँ धरा, वो है सागर, तो मै हूँ एक मामूली सा घड़ा, ये सब जब मैं समझ सकता हूँ, तो तू क्यूँ नहीं मान पाता, तू मेरा साया हो कर भी मेरे साथ क्यूँ नहीं चल पाता, हर चीज़ जो इंसान चाहता है, वो उसे नहीं मिलता, जीवन के इस दस्तूर को तू क्यों नहीं समझ पाता, तू भी जानता है कि तू मुझसे हार जाएगा एक दिन, तो मुझसे अभी ही ख़ुशी-२ हाथ क्यूँ नहीं मिला पाता, मैंने तो अपना जीवन नहीं रोका है,मैं तो जी रहा हूँ. दर्द के बारे मे बिलकुल ना सोच कर मैं तो हँस रहा हूँ., फिर तू क्यूँ नहीं हँस पाता,मेरा हमसफ़र क्यूँ नहीं बन पाता, मुझे तो तेरी नासमझी पर गुस्सा नहीं, अब तो तरस आता है, तेरा साथ छोड़ के तुझसे भी दूर जाने का दिल चाहता है, जल्दी से सब समझ कर मेरे साथ आ जा, वरना मैं तो तुझे यहीं छोड़ के आगे बढ़ चलूँगा, मेरी लड़ाई तो किस्मत से है, तुझसे अलग रह के भी मैं जंग जीत लूँगा, मेरे सामने अपनी अहमियत जानकर भी तू मुझसे क्यूँ है लड़ना चाहता, मेरे जीवन के इस पड़ाव को तू क्यूँ नहीं समझना चाहता....
